Journey To The Mask

I wake up every morning and the first thing I do is put on the mask.

I put one on to hide my emotions and my true self from those around me.

You may ask what that means for those around me like Kevin Hart said let me explain myself.

See, I was brought up to believe that your family was everything and they are the ones that will be with you until the end of time.

I didn’t worry about losing friends because I had my family to come through for me.

But nobody told me how deceitful and deceiving they can be.

I remember my first betrayal, I won’t go into details, but when I was just 15 years old the truth was open to me and that’s when my journey to the mask begins.

At the age of 15, I thought I was doing a good thing and was betrayed by my friends, but that wasn’t the one thing that broke me.

It was that my cousin the one person I can depend on and the one that supposed to have my back was the one that turns against me and that’s what broke me.

Over the summer I found myself angry and alone and that’s when I found the mask.

I put that mask on my face and my journey down a dark path began.

I lost trust in people, especially in my family and had a tough time making friends let alone keeping them.

The years went on and I continue to wear the mask even though I try to take it off I found myself putting it back on because my friends and family led me back to that mask.

If you don’t understand, let me elaborate just a little bit longer.

I was always being called stupid, especially by my family, they thought it was funny, but it hurt me so deeply I sometimes cry myself to sleep.

I cry even as I write this down and sometimes I must step away from the computer to clear my head.

See people who should matter don’t see how creative or smart I can be because they want me to do what they want to do and not what I want to do.

I get insulted daily it’s like my brain is so numb it tells me to shake it off and continue with your life, but it can only take so much until I want to explode, but that mask comes right back, and I put it back on my face time and time again.

Don’t think I will disrespect my family to gain recognition of this peace this is just me telling you a story about my journey to the mask.

It also seems the more I write this the freer I become so here is my advice to you to all who read this like it or not.

Take off your mask and be yourself, let those around you accept you for who you are.

For I’m the guy that like to watch anime movies and read comic books.

I’m the person that likes to keep up to date with all the latest video games.

I’m the person that will always give a helping hand and listen to all your problems despite other people having a problem with it but will also not give a damn about you once you cross that line of betrayal.

So, take off your mask and look in the mirror and tell me what you see.

Because when I take off the mask and look in that mirror, I see myself… My TRUE SELF.

 

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