You know the one thing I hate about going to a wedding, is having the feeling that you’ll never get the chance to have one yourself. I mean with the way things were going for me the past year and a half. I was about to give up hope and just live the rest of my life alone. Even when Zoe tries her best to give me good advice about how I should be patient and wait for the right one to come along.
I mean the guy she’s been with just proposed to her a few months ago, and we also learned that she was with a child last week. Yep, everything was falling into place for Zoe and here I was still single. Still looking for Jennifer.
“Are you enjoying yourself?” asked Fred.
Fred, a good friend from high school looked at me as I stared at him for a second. I couldn’t believe he got married to his high school sweetheart Tanya. I never thought they would have that kind of story. Well especially in our time, I always remember how mom and dad told me stories like that. Guy meets girl, the guy wants to be with the girl, goes through a series of challenges to be with her. Then Bam! He’s married to her and they live happily ever after. It was those kinds of stories that made Zoe and I always believe in the power of true love. I just wish I didn’t fall too deep into the rabbit hole.
“Yeah, man, just enjoying the view from here,” I replied.
I was sitting in the corner while everyone else was socializing with each other. I couldn’t believe that Fred was able to get a few of our old high school buddies together for the wedding. Even though it hasn’t been that long since we graduated high school. But seeing everyone was a great feeling. Helped took my mind off a lot of things. Especially Jennifer.
“Great! Don’t forget to talk to some of the guys while you’re here. They haven’t heard from you in ages.”
“It’s only been five years Fred. I’m sure they didn’t miss me that much.”
“Five years is a long time for some of us.”
Five years is a long time. But not for me, I felt as if time just flew by me and before I know it I was old enough to drink. I guess I spent so much time with Amber, thinking she was going to be the one for me. I never thought about time, but now I felt like I was paying for it.
“If you say so, Fred. If you say so,” I said.
“Whatever man. But hey, there’s this girl that Tanya and I want you to meet.”
“I know it’s been like five years, but my feelings about you playing cupid have not changed,” I said.
Fred felt that I shouldn’t be the only one in our group that was single. The thing was I was talking to Amber at the time and just never got around to tell him about it until we graduated. Amber went to a different school than us, so, it was easy to keep her a secret from the rest of the guys until I knew we were official. Unfortunately, Fred didn’t take her likely. He always told me there was something up with her, but he couldn’t put his finger on it.
“I know, I know. But come on man one more chance. I think you’ll like her,” stated Fred.
I thought about the proposal for a minute and figured that I didn’t have much to lose anymore. I couldn’t find Jennifer no matter how hard I tried, and I needed to do something about my love life. I didn’t want to be like my dad and wait until I was in my mid-thirties to get married.
“Fine. For the sake of your wedding, I’ll do it,” I said.
“Awesome, I’ll have Tanya bring her over,” said Fred.
I watched as Fred walked off and I went back to looking at all the people mingling with each other. I watched as they all laughed and cried sharing memories together. And there I was sitting there trying to pretend that everything was fine, but it wasn’t. The thought of Jennifer ran through my mind again. I was wondering what she was doing right now. Better yet, I wondered what she would have me do if she was at this wedding with me. She probably wouldn’t want me standing in some corner looking like a stalker. She probably would ask me to dance with her throughout the whole receptions. She probably would’ve wanted to talk about our future together. But she wasn’t there, she was somewhere else, and I was there looking like a complete loser.
“Hey, Sam!” Yelled Tanya.
I snapped out of my thoughts and looked to see a woman wearing a white wedding dress. Quickly walking to me pulling a girl wearing a turquoise dress. They stopped a few inches with slight heavy breathing coming from both.
“How are you Sam?” asked Tanya hugging me.
“I’m great, and congrats on your wedding,” I replied.
“Thank you! But between us, I wanted you to be Fred’s best man.”
“Well, we haven’t talked in a while. So, it made sense that he chose someone else.”
“Yeah, true. But it would’ve been much better if you were. That way you would’ve met my Maid of honor beforehand.”
“Oh wow, I feel special to meet her,” I said.
“You should, I’ll think you’ll like her,” said Tanya.
Tanya turned around to see her maid of honor talking to another guy. She quickly tapped her on the shoulder and pointed towards me a few times. Anxious for her meet me. I just hoped that Fred and Tanya didn’t oversell me to her. I would’ve hated to disappoint her if I wasn’t up to the standards those two put me in. The girl turned around smiling hard enough for me to see her shiny white teeth and her hazel eyes.
“Sam, this is—”
Jennifer smile quickly faded away, as I stood looking at her for the first time in a long time. I couldn’t believe after all this time she was right here in the same room with me and I didn’t even notice her. I felt like an idiot when I saw her again, it’s only been one year since we last saw each other. But it felt like a lifetime for me.
I stood there and analyzed her features once more. Slim body, with smooth skin and mesmerizing eyes. Her hair jet black and her smile majestic. I couldn’t take my eyes off her, let alone get the words out of my mouth. Jennifer looked at me as if she never seen me before. But who could blame her, we haven’t seen each other in a year.
“I’m sorry,” said Jennifer.
“It’s me, Sam,” I said.
Jennifer and Tanya looked at each other with confusion and looked back at me. “Sam, this is my friend Veronica from college.”
I quickly looked back at her and saw that Jennifer face faded from existence. Now I was looking at Veronica the maid of honor. Not only was I disappointed again, but I embarrassed myself in front of her.
“I’m sorry,” I said.
I quickly ran past the two and headed for the exit. Once I finally made it out. I felt free and could breathe again. My focus on Jennifer has clouded my mind so much that now I was seeing her everywhere. I heard the door behind me opened and I turned to see Tanya face filled with concern as she gently closed the door.
“Samuel are you okay?” asked Tanya.
“I’m fine, Tanya. Can you tell your friend that I’m sorry for that? I really didn’t mean to do that to her,” I stated.
“It’s okay. She’s a very understanding person. But who’s Jennifer?” She asked.
“It’s a long story,” I said.
“Well, we are out here. And everyone’s too busy to notice that I’m gone. Tell me about her.”
I looked at her and looked through a window to confirm what she just said. People were to busy socializing with themselves that they didn’t even notice me running past them. So, I doubted that anyone saw her come out after me. If so, Fred would’ve been the first one through the door.
“Where to being,” I said.
After a good thirty minutes have passed by and me telling Tanya about how I met Jennifer and Mary at the park and followed by the date and now I’m at her wedding. Tanya cried halfway through the story as if it was the greatest story she ever heard.
“I’m so sorry, Sam,” said Tanya.
“No, it’s not. You need to find her. I can help you if you want. I’m good at finding people. So is Veronica. If you just give us a good description we can find her before the month is out.”
“Slow down Tanya. I’m fine, I really am. Besides I’m realizing that maybe we weren’t meant to be. I guess one day I’ll find the one for me,” I stated.
Tanya wiped her eyes of the water show she displayed earlier and gave me a smile. I always did like Tanya she was always the optimistic one out the group. I’m glad Fred picked the right girl to live the rest of his life with.
“Thank you, Tanya, for listening to my story,” I said.
“You’re welcome, but promise you’ll find someone soon. Even if it is Jennifer. You deserve to be happy. Just like me and Fred are right now,” said Tanya.
I shook my head in agreement and reached for the door to let her in. She smiled at me and walked in to attend to her guest. Many of them greeted her with a smile and while other wrapped their arms around her neck pulling her in closer. I turned to see Fred walking towards me with a similar look that Tanya gave me earlier.
“Everything okay, I saw you talking to Tanya outside,” said Fred.
I looked over at Tanya and she looked back at me and gave me a wink with her right eye, followed by her majestic smile. I returned one back but only half-hearted and turned my attention back towards Fred.
“Yeah, everything is fine,” I said.
“You sure, she looked like she was crying,” said Fred.
“Enjoy your wedding and your honeymoon. And once you get back. I’m sure Tanya will tell you all about it.”