Loneliness is, to me, a double edge sword. It can be comforting, or it can be dangerous. Some of us loath it, while others find peace within it. However, the one thing we come to learn while being alone is that we use it as a time to reflect on the events that have happened to our lives. Whether it was negative or positive. Sometimes doing this can lead down to a path of enlightenment or an abyss of endless thoughts that could destroy even the strongest of souls.
For the past few weeks after talking about healing. I decided to follow my advice and do just that. At that time, I started taking walks to calm my nerves. Read books in peace to escape from this place we call reality. Most importantly, I decided to start cooking my meals instead of trying to put things together at the last minute or getting fast food. But the time for healing was over, and I chose to reflect on the many things that have led me here at this moment.
To spare you the details of what was going through my mind. I came to realize that to some I was a blessing, to others I was a curse. It was hard to separate the two at first, but it made me realize how much I could’ve missed out if a few things came true. I also started to reflect on my living situation and realized that I would have to make a lot of changes in the next few months to a year to get out of it. But right now, I would have to make the best of my environment and turn it from a negative one to a more positive one.
Loneliness could be a double edge sword. It can be comforting, or it can be dangerous. You could either loath or praise it beyond measure. Any way you choose, I chose to go down a path of enlightenment and reflect on my life and made a promise to myself, and only to myself. That I will start taking more risks, make changes along the way. Focus and make me into a better person, because I now see the potential I have and want to fully express that to the world. If you’re reading this right now, I’m telling you to be alone for a while. But try your best not to go into full isolation when you do.
Be alone, reflect, and make the changes that you need to make to shape yourself into the person that you want to be. Just focus on the positive for now and we’ll talk more about how it feels to reflect on the negatives and what should be done about it. But for right now, just focus on the positive and nothing else.